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Okay so, Not much to talk about, Still havent spoken to Natasha , I think its been about a month pr so since the last time i spoke to her, She still crosses my mind at least once a day but the pain that comes with her memory has gone away, Im with somone new, She is making me forget alot of things and she has helped me with alot of things to, She listens to me whenever i need it, and I can say anything about anything and she wont judge me on it, We've only been together for a short time and its still not super serious but everything works so good, He parents love me, my parents like her and so does my sissy, She helps me pay for things like gas and other little stuff and I help her too, She has her own car which makes everything really easy, And she does her own thing alot, SHe doesnt make me her world, Her friends just happen to be people im friends with so it works really good,
Anyway,
Other then that I havent been up to anything, Just working and school. pulled a motor out of a toyota celica today now matt can finaly put it all back together and get driving again,

well im done, here are some old lyrics





Any time I need to see your face
I just close my eyes and I am taken
to a place where the crystal mind and
majenta feeling taken shelter in the base
of my spine sweet like a chica cherry cola

I don't need to try and explain I just
hold on tight and if it happens again
I might move so slightly to the arms
the lips, the face and the human
cannonball, I need to I want to
Come stand a little bit closer, breathe in and
get a bit higher you'll never know what hit you
when I get to you

Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out
Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out

Im the kind of person that indulses a deep commitment
getting comfy getting perfect is what i live for
but im looking and the smell perfume It's like im down on the
floor and I don't know what im in for

Conversation is time and a place of interaction of a lover
at the nick of time over takin using signals, using words can be like
seeing a deep sea diver who is swimming with a raincoat
Come stand a little bit closer, Breathe in and get a bit higher you'll
never know what hit you when I get to you

Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out
Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out

Any time I need to see your face
I just close my eyes and I am taken
to a place where the crystal mind and
majenta feeling taken shelter in the base
of my spine sweet like a chica cherry cola

I don't need to try and explain I just
hold on tight and if it happens again
I might move so slightly to the arms
the lips, the face and the human
cannonball, I need to I want to

Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out
Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out (so can we find out)

Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out
Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out

Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out
Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out (die to find out)

Ohh I want you I don't know if I need you but
Ohh I would die to find out
Ohh I want you I don't know if i need you but
Ohh I would die to find out

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I've been sittin' here
trying to find myself
i get behind myself
i need to rewind myself
looking for the payback
listen for the playback
they say that every man
bleeds just like me
and i feel like number one
but yet i'm last in line
i watch my younger son
and it helps to pass the time
i take to many pills
it helps to ease the pain
i made a couple dollar bills
but still i feel the same
everybody knows my name
they say it way out loud
a lot of folks fuck with me
it's hard to hang out in crowds
i guess that's the price you pay
to be some big shot like i am
out skirt stands and one night stands
still i can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know about the things
i say and do they don't understand
about the shit that i've
been through, it's been so long
since i've been home i've been gone,
i've been gone for way too long
maybe i forgot all the things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life
than this, I said it too many times
and i still stand firm you get what
you put in and people get what they
deserve, still i ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin'
I've been walking down that line
So I think I'll keep walking
with my head held high
i'll keep moving on and only God
knows why

Only God... only God
Only God knows why
Only God... knows ... why, why, why only
God knows why
Take me to the river hey
Take me to the river

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this week was a long one, alot of stuff happened, some good some bad, On monday i was hanging out with some people and then I met her, Didnt really expect anythign to happen but by thursday night that all changed, Its been weird, Im still kinda messed up about all the shit that happened with natasha aka, car slut. But this girl is nothing liek what i normaly go for, she is great to hang out with though and she talks about stuff i like its nice to have, We arent together or anything, we are waitng a lil while to see how it goes, She just broke up with her boyfriend who is a friend of mine so it has made the PL parking lot a lil different.

Anyway, easter weekend > me. I have to work 30 hours over the holidays but i get payed double time for like 16 of those hours so i will be making about 14$ an hour , this week i am picking up some subs and a amp for my car, hopefully i will be able to out pound brads precedia, and that thing is a beast when it comes to bass.
My parents go away this week too, so its a BBQ at my house thursday night, and then DAF on sunday night. Im bringin Chantelle down to meet my sister, see if she meets her expectations. If she does then i know shes a keeper,

so anyway, me and natasha havent talked in over a week, I miss it sometimes but im so happy that i dot htink about her like i use to, she has a new man too, i dont know who it is but hopefully it will get her out of the lot so it doesnt feeel so weird when im down there, wel im out,

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Baby, there's just no use in hiding
The way that I am feeling right now
With you standing there baby I swear I can't help but stare
Girl you're wearing me out, wearing me out

[chorus]
(Baby) So why dont you stay with me share all your secrets tonight
We can make believe
the morning sun never will rise
Come and lay your head on this big brass bed
We'll be alright as long as you stay with me


Have you ever been so close to someone but felt a mllion miles away? Last night was great, amanda went to the concert so i was kinda bumbed but it wasnt anything to think about, I had a good night, when we go to ians i was pretty muched just fucked right up and it was the only reason i controled myself, I wanted to just wrap my arms around that girl and go to sleep right there on the floor, it was like there was everything telling me to do it, I know it wasnt true so i didnt do anything, I just acted like a friend. Might as well keep her happy, Im glad she doesnt read this, Just be one more reason for her to be mad all the time. I think she has somone new. But i dont know anything about her anymore, she pretyy much just cut me out of her life. I still miss seeing those big brown eyes in the morning, feeling her hair in my face when were sleeping.

Im not ready to make nice, im not ready to back down, Im still mad as hell and i cant go around around and around.

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I still miss her, I pretend like I dont notice her but everyday I wish I could still fall asleep beside her and know that she would be there when I woke up, She is the only reason i even still go to school. I dont want to be there but its the only place i see her. I want to tell her things like what has been heppening in my life and how i feel , But she is too busy now to even remember me. I wish i could do what she did and just stop loving and walk away from everything. I just miss everything.

One the day she stoped loving me..

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I havent been here in a long time, Im not even sure what to write, I can start with the fact i bought new rims for my car, they are sexual, they made me happy for a while, now im bummed out again, Natasha walked out of my life, left me for good, just left, I spent weeks tryying to forget her, BUt everytime i climb in bed i feel so alone, its liek im missing the other half f me, she meant so much and i never bothered to tell her, now she wont even talk to me without us getting in a fight, i just wish i knew what to do and how to act, I wanna be friends i do, I know i cant be with her, But i just wish i knew there are so many things i needed to hear.

I gave her back the picture of us, i still have some more but i cant even bring myself to look at them, they havent left my closet.

Things are changinf to fast for me, I dont like change it makes me feel so shitty whenever i think of everything that has come and gone, I cant finish this, too fucking hard to write what i wanna say

I wish you would call me right now
so i could get through to you somehow
im officially missing you

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So if i dont get a job within the next two weeks mom is making me sell my car. and i wont be allowed to buy another one, Fun shit

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You Are Han Solo! You love to take risks in life
and love! You are true to your friends, and
never let any of them face anything alone!


Which Star Wars Character (Episodes 1-6) Are You?
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So yes I am sick and feel Like throwing up and you know what makes it better, the fact that some idiot drove into my car way to follow the signs smartwoman, She is gonna try and say it was all my fault because she didnt see me, How the hell dont you see someone beside you?...jesus... . I feel like crap, worst of all i broke a promise i made to myself. i hope this week gets better

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Alright here it goes,

I went away over march break to Sunday river, I skied the hole week with only one minor accident.
We went to olive garden and a few other restaurants they were pretty good, And I went on my usual shopping spree there and bought new shirts and a new 686 zip hoodie, Adn some element t-shirts, My car is slowy working itself to being nice, Its hard to get money though I work alot but there just isn't any money to it, Anyway, Tasha and I are doing good, we havent been fighting which is always good, I have cut down on the "herbe" and My marks are looking better, Like my 90 average in math!!! Im still going to learning center twice a week but only for another few weeks then im done and i cant wait, because my mom will have money again and i can get another job and make some money to put into my car I do plan on selling it next fall, after it gets painted and has new rims, But first up is an engine rebuild so it will be back up to par and should haul 180km/h, Lol that is its top speed even if it was supped, lol.
Well, Im getting a hair cut this week most likely, and i will re-grow my goatee, I had one for the last month but i had to shave it it was getting a lil' to long, I picked Liam up the other day for work and he was half drunk, I was half blitzed so it didnt bother us, we ate a whole pizza on the ride in, I only work one day this week and im thinking I might head to truro sometime soon, I need to get my blanket back and return a few things, Plus I wouldnt mind seeing rudaford if he is still around, Matt and Tegan finaly got together it only took about 2 months, She is terrified to drive with me, But she always gets in the car, Ian has officialy scared me to ever get into a carolla again, 180!!!, then a police chase!!, jebus,
Well im out, Im going to try and make updats a regular thing,
Later
PS.. I saw ladder 49, It gave me more respect for what my dad did for all those years to support us,

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I did something I havent decided if it was good or not yet,

Im confused

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I have to take Math 11 again,
I passed the exam but still didnt have enough points on the term to get the credit So i dropped oceans and took math again, I still have to take woodworking technologie and i really would rather not because it is a given course that any idiot could pass.

Anyway Im so tired from skiing today, I tryed the beackflip again, It did not work. But i landed good 360's so im happy. Later dayz

Jordan


I love you Natasha

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I got my car back!!!!
Yes!!!!!

I got to go skiing friday it was mint, I might go up today too, depends on if i got to see tasha or not, oh well work was good the last couple days it hasnt been too busy so its been good,.
Im out for now Later dayz

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don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You beautiful soul, yeah




I had a great night, I spent it with tasha, What A girl, I love her.
So no school again tomorrow, Man i need to get this exam over with, I hate math, Im so sick of studying for it,. Tonight was an awesome break from studying though, I needed it.

So car this week!!!! wooo,
Im so tired, And i miss skiing, BUt tomorrow I am going out skiing I have too orr im gonna go nuts..
Well im out, There isnt much to say except I love tasha more and mroe everyday.
Later dayz